About Me
- enilyram
- simple about me LeLeN ... I'm a NURSE's student(July 2009 - Dec 2015) Currently working in a Hospital in post natal high risk ward Sometime you dont understand me~~ but I wish U dont.. *I've been deleted some of my words here due to my current surrounding and interaction with other.. which is not suitable about me now.. Back to my point I have 5 siblings.2 sister a brother and young brother all of us married and multiply except my young brother.. I know your shining eyes but you don't like me actually.. before you do that think yourself first. Hate me and do ahead.. the one Who create me is create you too. So you are trying hating God. Peace be with you
Saturday, January 29, 2011
3rd Dice - New Hope With Lyric
I know I'm foolishing myself but....
God are we still have chance?
I want he know I LIKE him.... I wish I can help him.... I want tell him I _ _ _ _ him
I want change is future and make it bright...
Lord, into Your Hand I surrender everything. There is nothing impossible into your hand.AMEN!!!
Friday, January 21, 2011
Bahasa Cinta (Andaikan aku pahami)
I want to be like her.
"help people for those who cannot help them self in this new century which is you may facing fake" -Maryline Perisin-
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"help people for those who cannot help them self in this new century which is you may facing fake" -Maryline Perisin-
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Come as you are hymn
Come As You Are by Fr. Paul Gurr, O.Carm.
Come as you are. That’s how I want you.
Come as you are. Feel quite at home.
Close to my heart, Loved and forgiven,
Come as you are, Why stand alone.
No need to fear, Love sets no limits,
No need to fear, Love never ends.
Don’t run away, Shamed and disheartened
Rest in my love, Trust me again.
I came to call sinners, Not just the virtuous,
I came to bring peace, Not to condemn.
Each time you fail, To live by my promise,
Why do you think I’d love you the less.
Come as you are, That’s how I love you,
Come as you are, Trust me again.
Nothing can change the love that I bear you,
All will be well, Come as you are
Come as you are. That’s how I want you.
Come as you are. Feel quite at home.
Close to my heart, Loved and forgiven,
Come as you are, Why stand alone.
No need to fear, Love sets no limits,
No need to fear, Love never ends.
Don’t run away, Shamed and disheartened
Rest in my love, Trust me again.
I came to call sinners, Not just the virtuous,
I came to bring peace, Not to condemn.
Each time you fail, To live by my promise,
Why do you think I’d love you the less.
Come as you are, That’s how I love you,
Come as you are, Trust me again.
Nothing can change the love that I bear you,
All will be well, Come as you are
My Parents
Photo by: F i l e x D e R a n d y I n d r aFather's death is like an umbrella broken,
Mother's death is like a train passed by.
-From a book: Life without a choice. Written by: Karuna Kusalasaya-
I don't think my parents like me. They put a live teddy bear in my crib.
-Woody Allen-
Looking at this pic remind my first step in Peninsular. After a month in Peninsular with ill heart, home sick and so on~~ I'm joining a Borneo Camp orginized by Kristus Aman Chapel in Taman Tun Dr.Ismail. The camp situated in Good Shepherd, Church at Damansara Height.
I couldn't remember when its on because I need open my 2009 Diary its all written on when I was joining the camp.
I still remember and still linger in my mind each one of us had been given a piece of paper and they told us to draw any particular things represent you and your family and you must discribe. Why you choose it? and why? so on.. Only 15minutes had been given.
*When I get the paper n pencil. I don't have any idea to draw on. Looking at my other friends busying drawing. I spent 5 minutes to find what should I draw and I keep on telling myself I SHOULD DO because its remind my BELOVED family at the moment I asked IHS to make it easier that hard for me.
As I said before I only like flower thats all only in my head. Then, suddently I got and an idea draw
TREE it will represent my both parent ~they standing there far away from me and wait me home with an old root based on soil waiting the ground refused provide water and food to them.
CLOVER represent my sibling ~they are colour of my life cheering me and couraged me.
BUTTERFLY my friends ~fly in the sky freely hoping that I will meet them again and play with them again.
Big Clover is me
As I drawing and my tears falling heavy like a rain and flow like a river which is difficult for me to stop on..
And I draw the TREES same as well like above picture but the background not like that lar~~~
This life had teach me so much I am a CRUEL daughter who always againts my parents word when they try corrected me. There were a time I pounch my bapa face when I fight with him due to save my sister. Next day I saw a blue-reddish swelled near his eyes.
"Lord, I know this is your punishment to me I do, with open hand I receive it but please keep them protect them and keep them in a good health. I know my journey still long and I know its hard for me stay again with them because I already deal with my life now and you know my base will be somewhere but not in sabah. I will give everything I have to them because I know one day I'm not beside them when they fall sick. I will paid everythings with my successful. Lord, only these Lord I ask You. In Your name I pray Lord.Amen."
In christ alone,
Maryline Perisin
*2:39 *A1409 room no.1 Palm Spring, Kota Damansara, Kuala Lumpur.
Thursday, January 20, 2011
YouTube - Everyday God
YouTube - Everyday God
each time I watch, I feel something warm flowing through my eyes... Lord you that... Everyday I praise You hoping you will give me strength to face my day. I'm not worth in this world, each day I kill people without my notice Lord, Have mercy on me~~ lets your plan be within me and lead me till my final breath.. I surrender everything Lord.
each time I watch, I feel something warm flowing through my eyes... Lord you that... Everyday I praise You hoping you will give me strength to face my day. I'm not worth in this world, each day I kill people without my notice Lord, Have mercy on me~~ lets your plan be within me and lead me till my final breath.. I surrender everything Lord.
Saturday, January 15, 2011
TwentyeLevent
its a long road I need ta pass on.....
exchange year....
i never prepare for it...
as I came back from my nest. I felt like I been renewed I never had a feeling such scared to move on like before maybe I'm getting mature
after 2 days been in hostel I heard rumors from my house mate that this sem 4 my college will send some of student go to Indonesia for practical.
I been missed to apply it on that day because I thought they just playing each other. After arriving from class I heard it again then I start asking them is it "true" or "not"
hmmm.... yes that it. Quickly I told my friend I also want to go... then she asked the person who incharge of this. Luckly there is still 4 left empty. I gave my full name, ID card number, matrix number and my number phone as they ask me to do so,
I really don't understand........ WHy and why, why? I got this....
"Lord, what is your next plan for me?"
I can feel that my future will not such as my brother n sister who came back to my family after their education jounery and having their own family and life.
I still have lot of things to achieve on~~
I want to go the place that I haven't reach on. I want to do the things that won't regret me later on~~
" Lord, can I Do this alone?"
For this year I start to not listen my family words I start do my own decisions.
Lets I deal everything by my self or later on I will regret for the rest of my life.
I found myself in trouble when I fall in love with someone.
Sometimes I really don't understand myself.. What I try to do... I made my days very stupid... Should I carry on~~ why oh why?
I haven't do my own vision for this year... the butterfly keep on playing in my mind but I didn't catch her....
I will catch her today if there is no barrier...
This morning I send a Verse to someone. I hope he know I like him very much.... I can felt I got chemistry with him... I never met a person like him who share his life story for me.
I really want to help him.. to love him even though I know that I'm going to foolishing myself.. I know there is no ending story between us because I dont want againts the law of God.
I just surrender everything to God. I will keep myself NO SEX before Marriage. Lets the time answer it.
"Lord, I want to be with him at two times only.... NOW and FOREVER.In your name I pray. Amen."
exchange year....
i never prepare for it...
as I came back from my nest. I felt like I been renewed I never had a feeling such scared to move on like before maybe I'm getting mature
after 2 days been in hostel I heard rumors from my house mate that this sem 4 my college will send some of student go to Indonesia for practical.
I been missed to apply it on that day because I thought they just playing each other. After arriving from class I heard it again then I start asking them is it "true" or "not"
hmmm.... yes that it. Quickly I told my friend I also want to go... then she asked the person who incharge of this. Luckly there is still 4 left empty. I gave my full name, ID card number, matrix number and my number phone as they ask me to do so,
I really don't understand........ WHy and why, why? I got this....
"Lord, what is your next plan for me?"
I can feel that my future will not such as my brother n sister who came back to my family after their education jounery and having their own family and life.
I still have lot of things to achieve on~~
I want to go the place that I haven't reach on. I want to do the things that won't regret me later on~~
" Lord, can I Do this alone?"
For this year I start to not listen my family words I start do my own decisions.
Lets I deal everything by my self or later on I will regret for the rest of my life.
I found myself in trouble when I fall in love with someone.
Sometimes I really don't understand myself.. What I try to do... I made my days very stupid... Should I carry on~~ why oh why?
I haven't do my own vision for this year... the butterfly keep on playing in my mind but I didn't catch her....
I will catch her today if there is no barrier...
This morning I send a Verse to someone. I hope he know I like him very much.... I can felt I got chemistry with him... I never met a person like him who share his life story for me.
I really want to help him.. to love him even though I know that I'm going to foolishing myself.. I know there is no ending story between us because I dont want againts the law of God.
I just surrender everything to God. I will keep myself NO SEX before Marriage. Lets the time answer it.
"Lord, I want to be with him at two times only.... NOW and FOREVER.In your name I pray. Amen."
Friday, January 14, 2011
A cup of coffee (Hospital Keningau)
1st week = November, 1st - 4th
1st day - Orientations as usually every time out for play in this field.
~ I wanna' flow the river where ever it flow ^_^
2nd days - Went to Female Medical Ward like ordinary do basic skills
* talking and listening psychiatric word ^_^
2nd weeks = November, 8th-12th
Specialist clinic for 3 days starting at 8am until 1pm.
* give direction them how to use nebulizer
* remove suture
* injection
*putting ECG
*meeting with psychiatric people
November, 10th – (last office) “this is my 1st time handled dead body as people said do they like they still alive. Yes! That’s it.”
November, 11th – having welcoming & farewell party at Permata Cafe.
~when e help, love & caring to the people and it paid to us ♥♥♥♥ the PPK Tenom game me pen to say thanks because I help him~
3rd weeks = November, 15th - 16th
The street not very busy. “We roll like usually we did”
4th weeks = November, 22nd - 25th
we move to Male Surgical Ward “Actually I really interested confront with female even though sometime its very difficult to handle & work with them is seem a magnet ‘U’ match with ‘U’ side but I prefer them."
November, 26th –(Bunsit river) “We having CPR test, picnic and some games that very enjoyable”
5th weeks = November, 29th - December, 4th
~Love, Faith and Hope. Love all my heart my own self and do Not ruin. Faith with the Almighty one and bow to His law. Hope got blessing for each things I do, guide and protect my parent, friends and future.
“Watching a reality people with gastric C.A final stage listening his complaint looking him mixing with people and trying to cheer him self accepting what he got and waiting to end his life with happiness make me felt bad and sad that I should learn something from this LiFE”
December, 2nd - Inserting Ryle’s tube to Sabina Agapitus a.k.a EnanG and she insert me too.
6th weeks = December, 8th - 10th
“A mess we done left the task that we suppose do it. I’m sorry Lord, for the things I done.”
7th weeks = December, 13th - 17th
”The street goes smoothly. Tiredness told me after homed.”
8th weeks = December, 20th - 23rd
December , 21st – welcoming & farewell party at Juta Hotel
December, 23rd – saying good bye to all the peeps at Male Surgical Ward. – meeting and gave testimonial make me eyes pour down.
”Alive teach me how to live carefully how sweet the rhythm of people path when we look their climax of their story. I know its already had planed by God. Just admit even difficult to swallow the things that really cough our sadness. All we have to do Praise to God and live life fully."
Over Roll > Each clinical posting I had a wonderful and different experience and memory that should and compulsory to capture and keep it. The beautiful moment I get in Hospital Keningau meeting with psychiatric, final stage cancer, dead body and last but not least a Very supporting and great Clinical Instructor Sir Galisin, Madam Evelyn and Sir Alex.
From my self-------> on bended knees and begged head I ask for apologize. My harsh words attitude and so on that hurting you all. The GOOD things I had done are from GOD and the BAD things came from my own self. See you again if got chance. Pray for me.
Love in christ,
Maryline Perisin
1st day - Orientations as usually every time out for play in this field.
~ I wanna' flow the river where ever it flow ^_^
2nd days - Went to Female Medical Ward like ordinary do basic skills
* talking and listening psychiatric word ^_^
2nd weeks = November, 8th-12th
Specialist clinic for 3 days starting at 8am until 1pm.
* give direction them how to use nebulizer
* remove suture
* injection
*putting ECG
*meeting with psychiatric people
November, 10th – (last office) “this is my 1st time handled dead body as people said do they like they still alive. Yes! That’s it.”
November, 11th – having welcoming & farewell party at Permata Cafe.
~when e help, love & caring to the people and it paid to us ♥♥♥♥ the PPK Tenom game me pen to say thanks because I help him~
3rd weeks = November, 15th - 16th
The street not very busy. “We roll like usually we did”
4th weeks = November, 22nd - 25th
we move to Male Surgical Ward “Actually I really interested confront with female even though sometime its very difficult to handle & work with them is seem a magnet ‘U’ match with ‘U’ side but I prefer them."
November, 26th –(Bunsit river) “We having CPR test, picnic and some games that very enjoyable”
5th weeks = November, 29th - December, 4th
~Love, Faith and Hope. Love all my heart my own self and do Not ruin. Faith with the Almighty one and bow to His law. Hope got blessing for each things I do, guide and protect my parent, friends and future.
“Watching a reality people with gastric C.A final stage listening his complaint looking him mixing with people and trying to cheer him self accepting what he got and waiting to end his life with happiness make me felt bad and sad that I should learn something from this LiFE”
December, 2nd - Inserting Ryle’s tube to Sabina Agapitus a.k.a EnanG and she insert me too.
6th weeks = December, 8th - 10th
“A mess we done left the task that we suppose do it. I’m sorry Lord, for the things I done.”
7th weeks = December, 13th - 17th
”The street goes smoothly. Tiredness told me after homed.”
8th weeks = December, 20th - 23rd
December , 21st – welcoming & farewell party at Juta Hotel
December, 23rd – saying good bye to all the peeps at Male Surgical Ward. – meeting and gave testimonial make me eyes pour down.
”Alive teach me how to live carefully how sweet the rhythm of people path when we look their climax of their story. I know its already had planed by God. Just admit even difficult to swallow the things that really cough our sadness. All we have to do Praise to God and live life fully."
Over Roll > Each clinical posting I had a wonderful and different experience and memory that should and compulsory to capture and keep it. The beautiful moment I get in Hospital Keningau meeting with psychiatric, final stage cancer, dead body and last but not least a Very supporting and great Clinical Instructor Sir Galisin, Madam Evelyn and Sir Alex.
From my self-------> on bended knees and begged head I ask for apologize. My harsh words attitude and so on that hurting you all. The GOOD things I had done are from GOD and the BAD things came from my own self. See you again if got chance. Pray for me.
Love in christ,
Maryline Perisin
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